1. I'm NB
2. I'm very offended by this comment and
3. You are 100% correct

I've been dealing with a similar anxiety recently. It sucks.

I'm a bit afraid of the future, but here is what I've learned during this time:

1. Sometimes we need some bravery to go on.
2. Sometimes our brain hurts us for no good reason.

I hope you will make it through this tough chapter of your life.

This might be it:

Making reading a daily habit was one of the best thing I've done. I used to avoid reading books like plague, but by reserving some of my time daily to just read helped me get used to it.

I recommend pretty much anything from Michael Parenti, but my favourite so far is Inventing Reality. I find his books also to be easy to read, which might help.

Btw if you'd like to change your doomscrolling habits into doomreading, The Divide by Jason Hickel goes into unequal development and ends talking about climate change, and how doomed we are.

To Kill a Nation by Michael Parenti

Communism is when the spoon is comically big.

Hmm I do wonder what happened to those XiBucks...

As a Finn I literally got told in school that Winter War was a "defensive victory" for Finland.

A reminder that judaism doesn't recognize the new testament.

I've been seeing videos from Sabbatical. He's from the US and seems to understand China from a typical anticommunist worldview, but he's most likely well-meaning and respectful of Chinese people and culture.

relationship goals

Russia asking help from North Korea was always less about Russia being desperate and more about 2 sanctioned countries finding themselves in the same team. Ukraine has been asking help too, but media does not interpret that as being desperate.

I'll tell some funny history about the farms construction.

Basically the location of the farm was perfect, even too perfect. Spawnproofing the fortress in the 1st days of the project was intense survival. Blazes spawned non-stop. I got my ass whooped many times.

Just to show the amount of spawns, there is 6-8 wither skeletons in this picture.

The developing/underdeveloped countries have been made reliant on foreign investment trought colonialism and coups, making them have no choice but to agree to loan terms. These terms ironically strip away the same ways to develop that modern rich countries used to develop themselves, like high tariffs and infant industry protection.

By market logic the poorer countries then have to compete for investment by cutting wages and social programs. The rich countries can instead subsidise food production, enjoy safety nets and bail out their companies in economic downterms. This doesn't even touch the unequal exchange between the poor and the rich.

Stepping out of line is not an option. The IMF, World bank and WTO have made that clear

The Finnish Communist Workers party has a similar take. They do say that multipolarity is a good thing, but call Russia and China imperialist.

Finding 8 would mean that there is a random beacon just placed somewhere by someone. None of the hidden beacons are activated.

I noticed that the villager oblast has lost some useful librarian villagers. I got a Looting III villager back, but some are still missing.

What is the 1st picture about?

Sounds great. There was some diamonds and some deepslate diamond ore gone. It happened before 8th of this month, but I'm not sure at all if it happened before the problems with the server last week. I had put them in over time so I know it is not just a badly timed server reset. Thanks in advance.

If you'd like to hear something extra, a similar situation has happened before. On one of my 1st days on the server, I was getting diamond gear trough trading. Comrade Zerzerag(?)(forgive me if I got their name wrong) had recently put some diamonds into the resource center. They afterwards disappeared and Zerzerag noticed. I was a prime suspect with my newly traded shiny diamond armor. As a suspicious new player, I got accused of taking the diamonds. The master rank villagers were a proof of my innocence at the time.

All my diamonds have been taken/stolen from my base (except like 1 from item frame). I have 2 boats made of oak and spruce as proof of player activity. There also was just 1 diamond in the recource center when I last checked. I hope this kind of behavior could stop for the health of the server.