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Ryujinx is dead after being contacted by Nintendo, sad day for switch emulation.

After Yuzu got shut down I'm not sure what this leaves people with for switch emulators. I'm going to try and find archives and will update the post when I do. Last windows build: [archive.org](https://archive.org/details/ryujinx-1.1.1403-win_x64) Slightly older, but has linux and mac builds [archive.org](https://archive.org/download/ryujinx-1.1.1382) Okay there we go, a github mirror: https://git.naxdy.org/Mirror/Ryujinx

I am a lazy failure who can't do anything. *Basic* shit I consistently just... don't do. Its embarrassing. I don't even want to list all of it. I have hobby stuff I've wanted to for *years* that I've just never gotten set up. Homework? More like I'm not fucking doing that. I've been wanting to take steps for *months* to get myself on hormones and get clothes but have I done them? No? Of course not, because I'm fucking lazy. All I do is rot. Its been this way for a long time, I can't even remember when the last time I didn't struggle with this. And it doesn't feel like its getting better. If it really is my autism I'm not sure how it ever *can* get better.

I'll get this out of the way at the start, there's a good chance its just other things I'm dealing with. I'm autistic, and have semi recently figured out I'm trans. Those changes have made me a little less stable feeling. CW for the rest of this post for talking about many sad things, although I do not feel sad right now. ::: spoiler self harm, suicide, negativity, drug use, eating, etc Lately I have been going from extremely happy to extremely sad, or extremely sad to very happy. As an example, last night I didn't care anymore and wanted to kill myself. Today I am on a cloud and genuinely very happy. Nothing materially changed about my situation, no one talked me down, nothing. I smoked a bit of weed, felt better but still like I'd kill myself if I could, and now (the next day) I'm doing great. I struggled with depression for a while as a teen. I was self harming (something I have sadly gotten back into), hopeless, all the things. Meds never helped, ketamine didn't help, ECT seemed to help? But the doctor thought I wasn't reporting my symptoms normally or whatever so I never was able to follow up and continue. He felt like it was some personality issue (I'm diagnosed with avpd, but now I feel autism + being trans explains it much better). But these swings happen a lot. I've made some very impulsive purchases while feeling good and just hoped it would work itself out. But is that because I broke from my depression or because I was some flavor of manic? I think when I have one of my swings people are surprised how fast it is. Just like, the way they tend to respond ("oh I'm glad you're feeling a little better" but like no, I feel completely fine now, on my way to feeling great.) The swings usually last hours or days, although like I mentioned when I was a teen I was very depressed for a while with basically no ups. I feel like I usually have a bad few days with some random ups, and then a few good days with some random downs (like once a day for a couple hours). I worry the lows will kill me one day. I get intensely depressed, suicidal, and don't care about my life. If I had access to a gun I would kill myself with it, when I feel like that. Now though, that I'm feeling good? I feel hopeful, full of life and energy, like dying is the last thing I want to happen to me. And especially if things actually don't look good in life and I don't bounce back quickly... I just would. But I'm not sure if I want to take bipolar medication either. I don't want to feel numb. This feeling of happiness is amazing, it fills me, I just want it to stay around. If my issue isn't bipolar, this could be my normal. But obviously if it is bipolar or something like it... then its not normal and the lows won't lift themselves. I guess I'm just looking for opinions, my current thought is to keep pushing on transitioning and see if the lows clear up on their own. I honestly have no idea if what I'm describing is normal emotional changes or not. The lows I'm pretty sure are not normal, because they do get bad enough I'll self harm or not eat for a day. Anything to avoid them. :::

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A breakdown how how transformer models work (AlexNet, an image classifier) [edit: more about CNNs then transformers, I misunderstood]

A great, slightly more in depth (without being mathy) explanation of transformer models. Mostly talking about AlexNet, an image classifier from 2012. Goes over some history and has some very interesting looks under the hood. He does use some personifying language for these models, but that's unfortunately the case for most information on the topic.

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Character ai is now serving roughly 20,000 messages a second (1.75b/day), around 20% of how many google search results are returned. The loneliness of capitalism is showing itself.

blog.character.ai

I know not many of you care about LLMs/other ai models but I think this really shows the amount of loneliness and in our society. Look at how it presents itself on Google. As an AI that feels alive, always available, that understands you. People don't use this service to summarize text or get help with their programming homework like they might chatgpt. They are selling artificial companionship. 

bit of a warning but this is a very sad, pathetic and hopeless post. If you're easily made sad you might wanna sit this one out. [avpd](https://www.verywellmind.com/avoidant-personality-disorder-4172959) is my own personal hell. Its destroying/destroyed my life. I have 2 "friends" I hardly talk to. Dropped out of college. No real prospects. I was born privileged and have just wasted it. I'm a failure. A husk of a person. I've never been on a single date. I'm just sitting here spinning my wheels. And the wheels aren't really spinning anymore. I'm so desperately lonely, but I just... can't. I don't even know how I'd meet people, if I could step out. I'm so lonely, and *sad* and FUCK being a social creature. What a cruel joke. A social creature that has a fucking personality disorder so they avoid socializing. WHAT THE FUCK. And this shit's permanent. Its who I am. Sure I can "cope" better but I DON'T WANT TO FUCKING COPE I WANT TO BE NORMAL WTF. I WANT TO BE LOVED AND LOVE PEOPLE AND I JUST CAN'T. ITS TOO DAMN HARD. ::: spoiler suicide I just wish I could die. I can't take this. I'm such a waste. Being alive is too painful as an anti social, social being. :::

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Helldivers 2 has been delisted from many regions

Apparently it's 177 regions but I don't know how to check.

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I love pretending to be an owl on the internet

That's the post whoo whoo

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I love being mad on the internet

That's the post dumbass

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I love being original on the internet

that's the submission fellas

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I love spreading misinformation on the internet

that's the post folks

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its so joever for the brits

I have absolutely no idea what he says in the video and probably won't watch it. I just thought the thumbnail was really funny. [the video](https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=CwKllJ_mj3c) edit: oh just to add he is a finance ghoul, so be warned. I only sub for the crypto and rap content.

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The AI Rice Cooker

www.youtube.com

There's a short snake camo at the very end for anyone who may/may not want to see that.

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Bird flu spreads to dairy cows in Idaho, Michigan and New Mexico

>“Cow-to-cow transmission is definitely playing a role in how this disease progresses. To what extent, we don’t know yet,” Leibsle said. It’s clear that infected wild birds spread the disease to herds in Texas and Kansas, he said. “But the herd of cattle that came up from Texas to Idaho, the birds didn’t follow,” the state veterinarian said... >...Idaho’s Leibsle said “not all dairy producers will want to wait one, two, three weeks” for dairy cows to recover. Some producers may decide to send the animals to slaughter as beef animals, he said. This bird flu shit scares me really badly. [archive.org](https://web.archive.org/web/20240331174229/https://www.washingtonpost.com/health/2024/03/29/bird-flu-cows/)

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Hello fellow gamers. Heads up, gog-games.to is shutting down very soon.

A very cool place to get drm free games may be shutting down in a couple days, download anything you might want. edit: site is currently up Also please give me game recommendations to grab.

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Sam Bankman-Fried convicted of multi-billion dollar FTX fraud

www.reuters.com

Almost exactly a year after they halted withdraws, it looks like the FTX saga is coming to a close. Sentencing won't be until March though.

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The DPRK hacked Stake (a shady crypto casino) for over $40 million

web3isgoinggreat.com

[fbi.gov](https://www.fbi.gov/news/press-releases/fbi-identifies-lazarus-group-cyber-actors-as-responsible-for-theft-of-41-million-from-stakecom) Based Korea