askchapo budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

So homeschooling is, generally-speaking, bullshit right?

Like it's mainly just an excuse for parents to not expose their kids to political stuff they don't like?

videos budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

Lindsay Ellis is retiring from Youtube

The Patreon post as copy/pasted by someone else (The final bit of it will be in the comments due to length): Walking away from Omelas This was going to be a YouTube video, but I just don’t have it in me to invite that kind of scrutiny, to be the last in the sick, sad line of YouTubers who get all weepy on camera and cry about how they just can’t do this anymore, boo hoo hoo. I had planned to move video content to Nebula, but I realize now that doing that is just keeping wounds wide open. My life ended nine months ago - what has been taking up bandwidth ever since then has been a ghost. It’s almost funny, how many people will insist that I have "lost nothing" (you know, because subscriber count is the only metric for success and cancel culture doesn't exist). One YouTube channel chugging along on algorithmic inertia is not success - it’s just an engine driving on fumes. Many will say this is being melodramatic, that my live isn’t over, that there was absolutely nothing stopping me from brushing myself off, building back up goodwill and shutting up and playing the game. And I tried that; in a way I suppose it’s good that I did, because I needed to learn the hard way that that was never going to work. There is no un-fucking this. You can’t find the energy if there is nothing left to convert to it. You can’t be a better person if you are nothing but the hollow shell of one. 2021 has been the worst year of my life. I am traumatized by it. To this day I still have people scolding me by how I handled it, that I should have handled it differently, that I should have “controlled” my “stans”, as if I had the capability to know what any of these people were even saying to strangers on Twitter while I was shitting blood for weeks on end. The worst thing about this whole thing is that I can’t even admit this trauma because of all the rhetorical devices people have already come up with to dismiss it. That centering my own pain is evidence of “not listening” (does it occur to these people that you can listen, and disagree with other people’s conclusions?) That I’m weaponizing my “fragile white womanhood” or whatever to say that having thousands upon thousands of people who you have never met hate you and say whatever will get them the most updoots is traumatizing. That people I used to know would sit there and lie about me on Twitter dot com to the tune of thousands of retweets and tens of thousands of likes, and I just had to sit there and take it. My favorite are the people who dismiss any potential harm I might have incurred as justified because I am a “wealthy, white woman” (I am not wealthy), while these same people’s hearts positively bleed for Britney Spears. These people don’t see how similar these talking points are to the same Boomer, bootstrap parenting style that I thought most of us had agreed was abusive - that you need to toughen up, accept your punishment, accept that even if the reaction was outsized that you did SOMETHING wrong, because where there’s smoke there’s fire. Grow a thicker skin. These same people who always crow about “believing victims” telling victims of public dogpiles that they do not deserve to claim their trauma, let alone to process it, because they deserved it. There is no such thing as cancel culture. There is no incentive/reward structure in places like Twitter to call people out. There are no updoots/favs/follows/retweets for hotting a take on whomever is trending. I reread the 2015 essay “Hot Allostatic Load” for the first time in years last night, and I could not stop crying. Even reading some of these passages now, I can’t stop crying. This was written from the perspective of a trans femme and discusses some rhetorical devices used to demonize trans women specifically, which obviously does not apply to me, but some of it is spot on: One of the most common tools of exclusion is through mobbing, which is rarely talked about because unlike rape, murder, etc, it’s not easy to pin it on a single person (or scapegoat). Mobbing is emotional abuse practiced by a group of people, usually peers, over a period of time, through methods such as gaslighting, rumor-mongering, and ostracism. It’s most documented in workplace or academic environments (i.e. key points of capitalist tension) but is thoroughly institutionalized into feminist, queer, and radical spaces as well. Here is why it is horrible: 1) It has an unusually strong power to damage the victim’s relationship to society, because it can’t be written off as an outlier, as some singular monster. It reveals a fundamental truth about people that makes it difficult to trust ever again. People become like aliens, like a pack of animals that can turn on you as soon as some mysterious pheromone shift marks you for death. 2) The insidious nature of emotional abuse: How do you fight ostracism and rumors? They leave no bruises, they just starve you. 3) Mobbing typically occurs in places where the victim is trapped by some need or obligation: work, school, circles of friends. This can prolong exposure to damaging extremes. For these reasons, PTSD is an almost inevitable outcome of any protracted mobbing case. The Isabel Fall case is almost a textbook example about how online mobbing harms people, and how the people who participate in these mobs never engage in any self-reflection — when some people read Fall’s “Helicopter Story” and questioned the trans bonafides of the author in early 2020, Twitter did what Twitter does and ruined Fall’s life, death by a million cuts, no one single person even beginning to question whether they did anything wrong by jumping to the worst possible faith interpretation of both the text and the author. After a profile written by Emily VanDerWerff was published late in 2021, were lessons learned about the way we use Internet mobs to tear down people we don’t know because of situations we don’t understand? No — one of Fall’s detractors, Neon Yang, became the new scapegoat du jour, using some of the exact same tactics used the prior year to attack Fall. I’m not going to touch on Yang’s original comments about Fall or the pushback to them, but what was downright charming in its lack of self-awareness about that whole situation was the way people used Fall’s trauma to hurt Yang, the way they invoked Fall being checked into the hospital while Yang said whatever about Fall and “Helicopter Story”, all while having absolutely no idea what was going on in Yang’s private life. What’s particularly galling is how many people accused Yang of “Sending a trans person to the hospital with PTSD” while apparently being completely oblivious to the fact that they could be very well doing the same thing to Yang, a nonbinary trans person. There was no lesson learned on the nature of mindless dogpiling, just Twitter doing what Twitter does - failing to examine systems of abuse while continuing to perpetuate them by laying into a new scapegoat. Again, a quote from Hot Allostatic Load: Feminist/queer spaces are more willing to criticize people than abusive systems because they want to reserve the right to use those systems for their own purposes. At least attacking people can be politically viable, especially in a token system where you benefit directly by their absence, or where your status as a good feminist is dependent on constantly rooting out evil. When the bounty system calls for the ears of evil people, well, most people have a fucking ear. Something else that was also inevitable - I was going to quit YouTube. I knew I couldn’t do it forever, that I was running out of steam, that I was sick of the increasing dehumanization inherent, that I just didn’t have anything to say about movies anymore. The plan was always to end with Love Never Dies, since it seemed like the best place to end, with some semblance of energy rather than keeping on until I've withered away to nothing. What happened to me in March and April hastened it, but this was always inevitable. My initial plan was to leave YouTube for Nebula, but I realize now that this is only entrenching myself in a more intimate form of harm rather than the broad, buckshot kind that YouTube invites. I won’t go into detail (not right now, anyway), but I can’t do video content for them either. I can’t make content period. I just can’t do this anymore. There is no healing as long as there is attachment to the thing that makes you suffer, and the thing in this case is being in the public eye at all. What I wanted was to quietly disappear, but since this is a platform where people are paying me to make content, I feel like I have to make a statement. If it were just me by myself I would just sign off and say goodbye and that would be it, but I have a team who depends on my company for health insurance, and including dependents I supply full benefits for eight people, and here in the US employer-based insurance is often the only feasible option. Saying to everyone “sorry about your children, but they can’t have insurance anymore because Twitter makes me sad” just doesn’t seem like a fair deal (none of them incidentally know I’m posting this). So the only thing I can do for now is keep this page active with the loose promise that someday I’ll figure out something in the future to make up for this, while asking you please stop messaging me apologizing for not being able to subscribe anymore. You don’t owe me anything. This Patreon is, like my own life and career, just running on fumes.

politics budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

I guess it's not *shocking*, but the Chinese government is pretty hostile to basically all forms of pornography from what I gather

en.wikipedia.org

Volcel jokes aside, that's unfortunate. Overall, I do think China is on the right track. but they def. have their issues with trying to legislate morality a little *too* much. I don't think Gianna Michaels/hentai is going to inspire the populace to take up arms in a capitalist revolution.

chapotraphouse budoguytenkaichi • Now • 100%

How is there not an emote of this legend yet?

:nelson-haha:

games budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

The Donkey Kong 64 manual is literally just Cranky Kong dunking on the game, the Nintendo 64 and the player themselves

The game's story: "Hmmm...well, I have to hand it to them. This time they've managed to come up with a decent storyline that doesn't involve the usual golden bananas. Only joking kids! This one's worse than all the previous efforts put together! I know you probably aren't expecting a best seller, but wait til' you hear this load of rubbish..." The pause menu/status screen: "I knew they'd have to have something like this. The Kongs will be so weighed down with all the garbage they have to collect, I can't see them getting past the second level. You can view all this silly nonsense and some other stuff I don't understand by pressing START during your game." Multiplayer: "It's true, I'm afraid. They've gone and included one of those awful multiplayer modes that seem to be all the fashion these days. This means you and some other whippersnappers can huddle round your flickering screen and play a few games that I reckon were thrown in at the last minute and will be average at best." The Nintendo 64 controller: "Arrgh! What is that thing? There are too many buttons... and this wobbly stick-thing feels like it's broken! I can't believe players use this silly controller contraption to play games!" Under header "Cranky's Tips": "Tough luck kid. I've been told to keep my mouth shut, as they want to keep all the good stuff for a money-making strategy guide. I'm sure some of it will appear on that newfangled "internet" thing as well, so I suggest you take a look-see there. You could also ask your friends, assuming of course you've got any. If all else fails, you'll just have to play better." His role in the game (He gives you new abilities): "Now don't you go asking me for a potion of gameplay, as even my genius can't rescue this game from it's rightful destiny in the bargain bin." Funky Kong's role: "Lazy, rude and loud he may be, but Funky the monkey stocks the necessary firepower you're gonna need to blast your way through the collection of mediocrity known as the levels." "Funky stocks the following shooters, all of which can hopefully be upgraded, if you can get that far into the game without falling asleep." Golden Bananas, the main collectable: "If you find more than ten, I'll be surprised." (There's 201 in the game.) Animal Crates (Which allow you to play as different animals): "I just hope they've included poor old Winky and Expresso this time instead of that bone-brained rhino that always seems to get in the games." (Winky and Expresso are, in fact, not in the game while Rambi the rhino is.) Bananaport Pads (Which teleport you around): Let me know if you find a bananaport that can take me out of this sorry game, and I'll be there in a flash." Switches: "The best switch is the one on top of your N64..." Tag Barrels (Which allow you to switch characters): "Players less skilled than myself (i.e., all of you) will also be relieved to find that your energy is replenished during a visit to these barrels, too." Deep in the manual: "Sheesh, you must be a real lame player if you're still reading this booklet. You obviously need all the help you can get!"

politics budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

Upvote if you've been here since week 1, survived the struggle sessions, and are still here.

Also: The little birthday cakes are cute, we haven't really gotten to see them til' now. :party-blob:

games budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

It's a sad day when you realize that you've outgrown the Game Grumps.

It's not because they're "immature" or anything like that, and it's not a diss on anyone who still likes them, it's just that I tried to watch a new video of theirs and it just didn't hit me like it used to. It's similar to what happened with me and the Nostalgia Critic (Tho admittedly with significant differences): I was a pretty big fan early on and for several years, but over time just fell off, started watching them more sporadically, before kinda just not keeping up with the new stuff anymore.

askchapo budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

Why is there a double standard in how this site talks about "western" animation and how it talks about anime?

When talking about western animation: *Nuanced serious discussion about how it's deep, beautiful art* Basically any time anime is mentioned: "OMG, ONLY REACTIONARY PEDOPHILES LIKE THAT SHIT LOL." Feels lowkey kinda racist, ngl.

main budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

Wow, stupidpol really does just fuckin' *despise* trans people huh?

Yeah, yeah I know: Stop the presses. I already knew that through osmosis, but actually going there and seeing them just *gleefully* eating J.K. Rowling out under a post about her bullshit really cemented it for me. They genuinely believe we'd have world communism by now if it wasn't for those meddling trans.

main budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

TV dinner companies: If your food's microwave instructions are any more complex than "put it in for x minutes", you have FAILED.

"Take out halfway through heating and..." What the fuck is this, Food Network?! Get that shit outta my face.

main budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

I may be a leftist/anti-imperialist, but I sided with the Empire in Skyrim and the New California Republic in New Vegas.

Keep in mind: I'm basing the following on them being the best *available options* that the games give you, not that they're objectively the best conceivable choices ever. For Skyrim: Fuck the Stormcloaks. They're basically medieval Nazis. For New Vegas: Fuck Caesar's Legion. They're basically Neo-Roman Nazis. But even with the independent New Vegas routes, whether it be with Mr. House or you at the helm, I feel like the NCR is still overall better. They're by far the most organized, have the most resources at their disposal and are arguably the best hope for humanity's collective survival/recovery post-apocalypse.

main budoguytenkaichi • Now • 50%

Real virgin hours, who up?

I'm 27 personally, and haven't been in any sort of romantic relationship or even kissed on the lips. Now I'm at the point where I wanna wait til' I have my own place before I make any serious attempt at it, cuz I don't want to be judged for still living at home (Don't have a high enough income to move out). I feel like once I seriously try though, I'll find someone eventually. I at least have that much confidence and self-esteem to know that I'm not unfuckable or anything like that.

main budoguytenkaichi • Now • 0%

In the Harry Potter universe, the Magical World stood by and let slavery, the Holocaust and every other historic atrocity happen.

Pretty fucked up tbh.